Trying so hard to focus on what is right. But its right there... Always pulling me back. Theres still about one more month. Time to dig in... Time to trust God with whatever measly faith that I have. I'm getting tired of always worrying... But I still can't stop.

God... you know my deepest desires. I leave them to you again... I'm trying not to pick it up again. I'm trying. Why is it that these thoughts come when I'm trying to spend more time with you? Merely distractions? Or is it something that I really want? If I really want this, wouldn't God surely provide?

It depends...

::: Lyric of the Day :::
With all of this I know now
Everything inside of my head
It all just goes to show how
Nothing I know changes me at all
Again I wait for this to change instead
To tear the world in two
Another night with her
But I'm always wanting you